So.There

When I think about it, there is absolutely no good reason that we shouldn't be together. Well, almost. If it were just us and nothing else around us, there is no good reason for us to not be together. But our surroundings can stop us.

I've always heard and have always been told boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever. Which indirectly says that if it comes to a point when I have to choose between my boyfriend, or even potential boyfriend, and friends, I am supposed to pick my friends. How can I do that? How can I choose my friends over you? You mean more to me than they do. Granted it is just two friends that I could be hurting, the rest of them would be so happy if we got together. They are more or less waiting for the day that we finally get together. But I can't hurt J and L like that. I am not a mean person, who likes hurting other people. I hate seeing other people hurting, much less me being the person who hurt them. I wouldn't want them to hate me forever or at all. But they are both in love with you. They call me up and talk about you, and I feel bad, because they don't know my hidden feelings for you. But doesn't it also come to 'friends should always understand why you do the things you do?' If J and L were my real friends shouldn't they understand that not even they should keep us apart? I can't imagine living without J and L. But I can see my future without you.

You and I were made to be together, I know it. We complement each other. You make me feel so incredible. So incredible, I can't remember the last time I felt like this. You make even the worst day that I am having into one of the best by just smiling and that look in your eye. It's almost as if it twinkles. I know that after I've been with you, my eyes twinkle. I can see it in the mirror and everyone else around me can see it too. So, if we are so made for each other why are you there and I here? Or how come when you are here, I am there. Can't we find some way to each other? All I know is that when you aren't with me, and when I don't get to see you, I almost feel not whole, not happy. I need you here with me. Please, don't let anyone else keep us apart. Don't let our surroundings and circumstances stop us.