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You don't understand why I would want to break up with you. I don't think I do either. I hope I don't regret itóa lot. It's not all your fault. Most of it is mine.

Why do you treat me as if I can't make my own decisions? I am a mature and responsible girl. Your little girl. Aren't I supposed to be your equal, your girlfriend. You can't make decisions for me, you should know I am to stubborn to let you do that, and I hate when you tell me "you don't mean that" when I say something. I wouldn't say it if I didn't mean it.

I hate when you smother me to the point where I act like a bitch just so you will leave me alone. Then you assume blame for me being mad. That pushes me even further away. Get a spine. Stand up for yourself. I can't go out with someone who can't stand up for themselves. There is something people need called alone time. That's where they need to be alone. By themselves. I need a lot of this time. Usually girls want more affection from their boyfriends, but I don't. But then, I am not your typical girl.

A mistake you made was falling so in love with a butterfly. You can't keep me under glass or hold me tightly in your protective grasp. it will only hurt me and encourage my need to escape more. Maybe, suprisingly, you are more mature than me, and I am not ready for such a serious relationship. I have always wanted one. But now it's here in front of me. And it doesn't look so appealing. I love you so much. This is so hard. But I'm only 15. I want this kind of relationship in 5 years. But by then someone who deserves you might have you and Iíll have no choice but to be happy for you. Maybe it will be me and we can have our white picket fence. Or maybe it will be you having to be happy for me even though you are miserable, jealous, and feel like you are slowly dying inside. I have often wondered is that how you feel when you see me with other guys, or hear me talk about them? Maybe I deserve to feel that way. Maybe you try to make me feel that way but either I am to insensitive or I am just not a jealous person.

Then there is my faithfulness. I can honestly say I have never cheated on you. I have often had the chance and came very close but never done it. Not even to make you mad at me, to see what it's like. I have done a lot of flirting though. I am sorry that I have interest in other guys. But I can't help that I am very flirtatious. I have to say I feel disappointed when the only reason I didn't cheat is because I don't want anyone to think I am a slut, and I don't want to hurt your feelings. Sometimes I feel like I wouldn't care if we broke up. But I can't even remember what it's like without you.

It will take a few more guys to treat me like dirt to realize how I really took it for granted being your Princess. I need these jerks to teach me how I should cherish you, for experience. This would be a lot worse 10 years from now if we were married or something and I decided I needed to see other guys. But I do think it's not fair to you, how much I take you for granted. I think I need to appreciate you before I can totally love you. I don't know how long I will take but I need time away. I will never stop loving you. I will always be here for you no matter what. I just feel like I have to be honest with you and it hurts to much to do it over the phone or to your face. I can't tell you how sorry I am. But I need to experience the gone part of "you don't know what you've got till it's gone" with you being gone. Please forgive me. Try not to abandon everything on us. You are my best friend.



So.There  -  It's about closure...

Whoever loves above all the approach of love will never know the joy of attaining it.
-Antoine de Saint-Exupery