Isn't amazing how time flies so quickly? I don't know about you, but I think so. It seems like it was just yesterday when I was daydreaming my way through English class, drifting through thoughts of you- when I dreamed of that day. August 27th- it was a day I knew would never come. I think down in my heart I always wanted it to though.

It should have been our sixth month anniversary of being together. I remember back in March, thinking, "I wonder if we'll be together in August. It seems like a long way away." And it did. It still does, even though it's already passed. I don't feel like I'm here anymore. I don't feel like I'm living my life.

You saved me so many times. Without you there, I feel as though I'm lost all the time. Like I'm just wandering around, trying to find a place in this big atmosphere we call earth. Isn't it funny how I say "this atmosphere called earth" as though it's a place I've been, not my home? Things like that are funny. Not really. You've always been my biggest weakness. Even when we were together, you could always get me to change my mind about something. (With the exception of Britney Spears.) It seems like a long time ago. Maybe it's just because we haven't really talked in a long time.

I don't know.

I was crushed when you said it wasn't working. I knew and know that it never could have, I just wished it had. I don't hate you. I couldn't. I think I miss you though. I wonder sometimes if you miss me too. Everything seems to be out of my grasp... that's how I always looked at our relationship. I had you, but I didn't. You were too far away. It was like something you wanted so badly that you could taste it, but you knew you couldn't have.

Tricks are sick like that.

I'm always yours. Part of me, at least. You know that though.

.jessie.