For so long we were together. A teenage fantasy some may call it. They said we would never make it. They gave us a week. We beat the odds.

Nine whole months I gave to you. I gave you my heart and my soul. For so long you were my only reason for living. I lost good friends because I spent so much time with you. I gave up everything. For you.

Nine whole months you didn't appreciate everything I gave to you. All the sacrifices I made. Something better came along and you would take it. Too bad I was too blind to see the obvious.

After nine whole months it was over. God I missed you so much. I cried myself to sleep for entire month thinking of you. My first true love. I tried everything in my power to at least rescue our friendship. You just looked the other way.

Now nine whole months after our nine whole months you are no longer there. The boy I once knew is gone. I miss him. So bad. I want the friendship back. How can you forget all the times you told me you loved me? All the late night phone calls?

A part of me hates you boy. I have found someone new, and I love him more than I loved you. But I still remember what it was like. Why can't you remember. Why are you so mad at me.

Please forgive me for whatever I did wrong. For all the friends I lost. For all those nights I layed in bed crying.

I am sorry

All my love, always, all ways,