You always knew just what to do to make me happy. You could always put a smile on my face by just looking at me with that silly face of yours. Only problem was that even though I was smiling, I was sad inside. A deeper sadness that you will never understand. It is far too complex for anyone but me. You never tried to understand it though. You just put it aside like nothing. Like there was nothing wrong with me. Like I wasn't the only sad girl in the world. I never understand how you could just pretend nothing was wrong with me. You knew that I would call you crying. I would call so upset that I would try to kill myself, but you didn't seem to care. I really don't even think you did. You just made up jokes that made me laugh. That is how you knew I was alright. I wasn't though.

Your smiles melted me. When you would drop by and visit me, just your simple smile made me want you right then. Then, your kisses where so elegant. Your lips were always so soft and firm pressed against mine. Your hugs warmed my whole body. You always smelled of cigarettes and Nautica. Such evident smells I would recognize anywhere. They will always remind me of you. Every time I smell those simple scents, they unleash emotions and memories of you. I bet you don't know that. I bet you don't even remember me. I bet that you don't even remember that you loved me once. A love so true. I bet you forgot our love.

Forever and always,