Last year you stole my heart away, I know you remember that. The night you told me I was so beautiful and that I could be a model (if yet I was a few inches taller). We spent that whole weekend together and I can still remember it as if it were only yesterday.

Now you are living with me and Mom and my feelings for you are still the same as always and yours are too. You love me as only bestfriends can, but I love you so much more. When we go to bed at night I lay on your chest and listen to your heart beating, wishing that it would someday beat with mine, as one. I know that will never happen because you have two lost loves. Ahh yes, Danelle and Anne. I must compete with these two females which I have never met before but they have burned themselves into your heart. I know I can not compete, even though whenever you need someone you run to me. When you need a place to crash it's my house first. Whenever you need to talk my phone rings. But as far as love goes, you look to them not me.

I could love you more than anything, I already do. You know how I feel and do and say nothing. We sleep in the same bed and do things that lovers do, but only I can claim love, not you. Now I'm to the point were I love you so much that I can't stand to be around you. I can't sleep in the same bed and have you holding me so close when you don't feel like I do. It hurts me to the point were I wait until you fall asleep and I crawl onto the floor and cry myself to sleep. I know I am only 17 and I have a long life ahead of me, but I know that I love you and I want you to be part of my life, forever.

It's been over a year now since we first met and, yet, you still don't love me the same way I love you. I am happy to know that you are my friend, bestfriend at that, but I dream for the day that you ask me to be yours forever. I know it won't come, but we can all have dreams, can't we? While you sleep so soundly dreaming of Anne I am off dreaming of you. I know it is a disappointment to wake up to me and not Anne, but I still love you and will love you until my days are up.

Love Always and Forever,