For four years I have stood by you, for all this time I have been your friend. I remember a time when we could tell each other everything, when we were truly friends. I let you into my life, I thought of you as a sister, I trusted you. I was there when your uncle died, I held your hand and cried with you when Erica was killed. We have been through so much.

At one point in our friendship we were so close, and now its like I don't know you. It all started when you meet Gavel. I was happy for you, you were in love and you were happy, but then something happened. You stopped being the friend that I once could tell anything to, you stopped listening to me. When Gavel dumped you I let you cry on my shoulder, I comforted you, I was there for you. Then you met Andy and its going to be 8 months for you and him soon, and its happening again.

The one day we had a fight you wondered why I got mad, well this is why.... You were once a person the only person I could talk to, and when you started dating I lost that. You think I am jealous of you, you think I don't want you to be happy and your wrong. I care about you a great deal and I want you to be happy, I just want my friend back. I want the person who would listen to me back. Now, today you don't know me, we say "hello" in the halls, but you don't know my pain. Yo do not know how deep my depression is, how much I hurt, what I do. You don't know that I have thought about death, how I have wished and prayed for it. You do not know how alone and unwanted I feel, how much of a burden I feel like when we do talk.

You were once my closest friend, my sister, and I will always miss that. I hope you and Andy will always be happy together, and that one day you will realize how much you have hurt me. I am not mad at you, and I do not hate you, I understand. If I was my friend I wouldn't want to be around me either.

Goodbye Jackie