I don't think I can forgive what you did. I've never placed in ANYONE
the amount of trust I put in you. And now, it's all done.I just need you to know that in a life of feeling miserable and
hopeless, this is as bad as it has ever been. I know you're seeing
someone else now, someone I once called "friend", and I really do hope
he makes you happy. I'm just having a hard time with the fact that I'll
never be able to slip into bed at night and feel you there waiting for
me. I'll never again be afriday.hble to make you breakfast. I'll never kiss
your lips.
I'm destroying myself, and now I have no one to stop me. Can you
imagine what true despair feels like? To know, even as you hold a blade
to your skin, that even this ... This ultimate end, won't fix things.,/p>
I don't know where to go now. I had two close friends in all the world,
and you were one. The other, you take to your bed now.
Does he know that you call me? Crying, in the middle of the night, with
him in the next room asleep? When I think I can start to pick up my
life, my phone rings and it all falls apart again. Your voice, the
voice I loved for so long, brings it all crashing down around me. And,
God help me, I look forward to the calls. It's the only way I can have
any contact with you. I miss you more than you could possibly imagine.
I can not take you back.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
I love you, and I will until the day I die. But you will NOT do this to
me again. If it means I never love again, so be it, but I will not
trust you with my heart. May you be happy with what you have wrought.
Jim
