We have known eachother for 7 years. We have been through very good times and extremely horrible ugly times together. I have gone from loving you in a passionate way (several trys, I must add), loving you as a friend, to hating your guts and not speaking to you for months, right back to the beginning and through the end again...and again. What on earth would psychology people classify our relationship as? We met online, and formed a relationship.

There were times that you would annoy the hell out of me. You would get in your car and drive 50 miles from your house to mine for no reason and bang on the door and look through all the windows for me! I used to hide in the closet till you went away. Those times, I didn't answer the door because I did not want to see you...I knew if I opened the door, you would stay all day and then for dinner, too..and that annoyed me. And then there were the other times... I begged to see you. I NEEDED you. That is when you decided to play hard to get or ignore me and make me feel the size of dirt..and I did. Hot and cold I guess describe the way it was...and you controlled the temperature.

I used to think that all of this was some sort of learning and growing thing people go through, and I was certain that one day we would fall madly in love with eachother (at the same TIME) and you were going to be the one I was going to marry. We were going to be millionaires by the time we were 30...remember that? We clicked, and still do actually, so well.

Funny how our relationship now has become what it started as..Online. I have moved 1500 miles from home and I never really told you the WHOLE truth why I did it until you caught me at it. I moved here to be with friends, yes... and to be with Chris in particular. You later found that out...or maybe you knew it all the time and never really said anything. Whatever the case, I thought that telling you the truth would hurt you because I think you felt the same way I did about us someday..somehow. I moved here with the full intent to marry Chris. And now that I am married to him, and all of this is over.. can we still be best friends? Noone knows us better that you and I. I hope one day you and I can talk face to face over coffee about this. For now, always know I love you very much.

Chelsea