I pretended that I didn't care when you walked out of the room tonite....but in reality my heart shattered into millions of pieces like a pane of glass. For the first time that I can remember, my eyes swelled, and I could feel a pool of tears gather. My thoughts raced through my mind, scattered and clustered like the highway of life. Now, my life has hit a detour...a fork in the road.

One way, you go, starting off on a new road unsure of where you're going, questioning what lies in front of you...maybe finding a path that leads back to me. But will I be waiting for you when you return? Will I sacrifice my happiness, to let you find your own? To let you find yourself again?

The other way lies new and unending adventures waiting to be had. Actions would not be planned by romance or a relationship, rather spontaneity would occur, living for the moment, uninhibited by the consequences Only the future knows what this road will bring; but it will mean the end of one thing...the love I once felt.

Now, I am faced with the dilemma of which road to choose. Each hold something that my heart needs: love & compassion to the right, adventure & risk to the left. Both will also bring pain to my heart that I'm afraid to endure, pain that I don't need. The pain that you have caused thus far has taken its toll on my mind...and on my heart. The fear of that pain tears me with equal strength towards the roads. This can not last for every, and the strength of one will soon out-weigh the strength of the other, causing my heart to break once more.

You hold the answer in your thoughts and your actions. Will I be torn to the left, and start a new adventure for myself....or will you find yourself in time to pull me to the right, and start a new adventure with you?

Needing to know,

Laxman